b 4 birthday!

nv wld have tot i wld found someone like you. a selfless being who put me in front of everything.

 it doesnt matter how much money, how much quarrels or even how much happiness we had. others can nv see wad tat. they are just reading our book. words and words alone can nv describe how much u mean to me. walking hand in hand, down this road with u, had been many years of my accumulated “fu qi”.

my love, rid me of my pasts, for all i can, is see the future with u.

p.s:  tks baby  for the wonderful night tat u planned. thou many thing didnt go ur way. but u know i appreciated each n every thing you did for me. its true.

*ilu. more den u ever know. muackz. =_

** n well me frens. not forgetting those who make an effort to make the plan a sucess huh. and those well wishes. =) love ya all too.

Its been a while since I blogged. Yes. My fault. Yada yada yada… well. A lot to write bout wad I did for these past wks but dunno how to start. So shall forgo being lengthy and making it short and swt.

Wks consist of:
- a wk on leave with 3 days stay tgt with baby at my hse. ( kallang ice stake, hang around at amk hub, sentosa – initial plan to tan become going for the 4D thingy, Cineblast, Interactive shooting game, Underwater world and dolphin lagoon due to rain.)
- L4D with gang and baby
- Free act as hair consultant for a day
- Hanging out with baby and more hanging out.

So dere goes the consolidated stuffs I had done thru the wks. Hahaha. Damn brief. Dunno wad to type lar. Keke. =)

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Hmmm. Now pple. Lets see.
Whose partner wld set ur alarm on ur phone for u to get up n head to work when u fall asleep at night?
Whose partner wld be afraid tat tat alarm is not enuff to get u up and set theirs too without knowing tat actually ur phone can set many different timing alarm?
Whose partner wld accompany you to slp when u fall asleep and even force themselves to when they are fully awake?
Whose partner wld help you squeeze ur nose blackhead for u and find it funny?
Whose partner wld keep asking you to let them help you trim ur brows to make it nicer?
Whose partner wld tell you tat they will bash the person that bully you and tell their mum tat they bully me?
Whose partner wld always make ur day even after a horrible day at wk, at sch or even anywhere?
And whose partner wld do things to you or for you tat you urself wld nv tot tat he or she wld be capable of doing?

Well. Mine do. And yes. i do appreciate each n every little thing you do. And hell I’m glad I found you. Even if odds are not favorable to us. I wan you to know tat your the one I wan to love and hang onto. The one tat I cld give my all again. Nv will u be any replacement.

Forgive me for once being afraid.
Forgive me for once not having the courage to love.
Forgive me for the quarrels and the many times of unhappiness I bring to you.
Forgive me for nv once stopped being selfish, wanting you by my side all the time.
Forgive me for being insensitive.
Forgive me for the many times of hurting you.
And lastly forgive me for being so madly in love with you.

Cuz tots get the better of me and im paranoid. Hoping sch wld nv affect us. Aahahhhhh.
Love you the most. =_

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Guess u guys must be feeling sick reading this. Hahaha. Well. Cant blame me. Tis is my blog, my life. Revole a little around my frens, family, work, sch and mostly around my partner. Wahahah. That’s miss cln for u. =)

*the one in power is the one who care the less.
The one who will be happy is the one who care more.
Are you the one in power or the one who is happy?

To darling poon:
Be strong.
Do wad u need to do.
Dun waste ur time on something tat u can nv see the future in.
When u fall, you know I’ll be there for you (make you safety net).
Cheers yupp. U still hv me. =)

happy happy sha la la

can i say im the happiest person around tdy. =)
Love is in the air. hehehe.
m currently blogging away while waiting for the two to be done.
My mum and baby.
baby decide to be homie tdy and wanted to cook pasta dinner for us.
mum helped. hahah.
they look so loving but i guess im the most loved one. hehe.

they are happily chopping and cooking away.
but one very very bad thing
they are GOSSIPING BOUT ME IN MY KITCHENNNNN!!!
and they tink i cant hear it. *GRUMBLES. =/
yet i wont mind this often. heh.

okay. gonna tke my initiative to help out
cuz mum had stopped helping.
haha. bye bye.

*I love u chew B sai.
thru all ups and downs, ill be with you.
you make me feel loved, esp tdy. MUACKZ!

I’m suppose to be alone at work right now but den again. My heart cant be settled without doin tis first. I help my love dyed hair last night. And it turns out. *drum rolls* veri nice. Hahaha. Light brown. And now it looks like natural brown. Love it. Say im gd. But lucky it turn out nice lar. My virgin for helping pple dye their hair hokay. Be honored. =)

Just previous days. Something make me realize how I was previously. i mean giving up on a rs is so much easier den holding onto one rite. N pple tend to give up when bad stuffs happened. No doubt I was one of them but not this time. I was exactly in the completed opposite situation frm last time. N finally I realize how it actually feel.

Work been hectic. Haven stop till now. All problems came at me when im working alone. -_- but it’s a gd experience. Keke. My turn to shine. Hehe.

N my love just texted me saying the color had turn red. Due to washing of hair. DUMB! Told u cant wash liao. Hahaha. Nvm lar. Still nice. =)

I’m so bored~~~ work make me mad. Hahah. 2 hr till work end. 3 to 4 hrs till seeing u again. Shall cont later. Tatat.

*how much will u hold onto me
when one day I decide to go?

angry

work haven been gd.
well tell me how wld it be when u hv a trainer who doesnt appreciate u and give u one hell of a crap everytime he come menses or mayb menopause. tis is wad u get when ur someone disciple. but tat doesnt give u the right to make me ur fucking target board rite. haiz. nvm. im taking note. so well. dun blame me if i turn around n bite u back. cuz enuff is enuff. but my head knew tat ur picking on me. bleah. hahahha. i sound so childish. nvm. i happy. =)

and den now i had a fucking new bully member. aye. who do u tink u r. LESBIAN ONG! ur just a fucking kitter. dun come n poke ur nose into B3 stuffs. shethead. u tink u can do a better job den me. den y dun op down to work at b3 and try ur luck working with my fucked up trainer. since he’s ur happy gay partner and u tink ur so much better den me. and dun try to act nice after saying so much. which part of my actions and face tell u tat i like u. i dun hv a serious attitude. i hv a FUCKING BIG ATTITUDE. SO WHAT! _|_ just shut the fuck up and stop putting others down to make urself happy. COWARD! okay. im offically madded. hahahha.

oh well. lucky life aint tat bad. because of you. =) i din expect tat kind of reply frm u. was expecting like dun care them lor. or nvm lar. something like tat. hahaha. u made my day and put a smile on my face. and better. made me laugh out too. thank you baby. appreciated it.

oh oh. n before i blog. i win two wars. first, i was killing xiao qiang again. wahahha. i win the war of xiao qiang vs miss cln. heh heh heh. den before tat i disturbed mr monkey. n i won oso. hehe. i know u like it rite mr monkey. u know who u r. =) i veri random. i know.
n n. tdy got two pple say my hair veri cute. first was darling. she say my fringe veri cute. heheheh. den it was my bro’s gf. she say my hair veri cute. got pple say my hair cute hokay. JAE!!! still say its cui somemoreeeeeee. )=

chewy is awake. i disturb him. hahaha. he’s so cute. sitting in front of my lappy n see me type. cant stand him. damn fat and cute. boomer baby chew chew dale. hehhe. oh. if u guys dunno who he is. he’s my new member. chewy the dale chipmunk. n dere’s ng ng too. ng ng the chip chipmunk. tgt they r chip and dale. whahah. but he’s over at baby’s. and dere’s oso pussy. the hamster. my hard earned love. i getting veri lameeeee. dun care. i not happy tdy.

aiya. i really wan to be angry with tat two bastard. but i cant get angry for long. tis is my weak point. )= aikz. i not happyyyyyy! but it looks like im happy. hahhaha. well. its all because of you lar. taoyan. =)

oh ya. n my fire warden appointment….. ahhhh. gone like tat sia. thomas hai wo. my head wanted to appoint me as one de lor. but he knew bout my trainer stuffs frm thomas. den thomas say its not the time now. haiz. now give other pple liao lar. my additional 50 buckz a month. BOO!!!! sob sob. another time die die i wan arrrrr.

okay lar. enuff of crapping liao. gonna go chat with my baby. =) tata pple.

*BABY
if i ever let you go,
I will never know wad my life wil be,
holding you close to me.
So
now that ur right by me,
i would love to see you,
always smiling back at me.

okay im back with updates. been down with fever n stuffs. =)
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27/05/09
i was down with fever. 39 plus i suppose. and i was down at orchard plaze haing my course. thinking tat my thermometer was spoilt cuz it show 39.3 degree. okay im dumb. hahaha. and still i went ahead to meet up with mud n gf. cuz mud will be away for a month. hahaha
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28/05/09
HAPPY ONE MONTH BABY!
no words can describe how much u meant to me.
through the many differences
and many disagreements
we knew we belong to each other.
and baby i love u.
with each and every breathe i tke.
its just for u. =_
…..
the day was well spent.
even when im sick, ur sick.
still nv once was i not happy with u by my side.
my one and only lover
…..
alien vs monster
3 days of happiness
loving it and still goin to
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04/06/09
PLAY!
screwed up night.
tell me not to be stupid anymore
i learned my mistake
no more jugglings
…..
i’ll be dere for u
i promise
dun give up on us
YET.
not now
…..
Baby, I’d been thinking lately so much bout u
Everything bout u
I like it
I love it
Kissing u in public, thinking nothing bout it
n u know i miss u
tonight, tmr and till the very end
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06/06/09
i was damn late for work
took half day e leave
actually i purposely de lar
hahaha.
too tired
wan to slp
make darling worried
sorry, heh
…..
im debating within myself to get starhub bundle plan or singtel
cable tv or mio tv?
i dun give a damn
i just wan the god damn HOME LINE
to call my baby
whahahaha
…..
nnn i found my dream phone
but its damn bloody exxxx
N97
quoting at $1075
GOD!
who wan to chip in some ka-chings to get me tat
money is all i need for me bday
wahhahahaha.
…..
alright im running out of words
so i shall end now.
*ilu
many many
much much
lots lots
=)
…..

 

loves

I feel so vulnerabe tdy.
i feel so weak.
like i hv no defends.
—–
tears fall with just a dream.
i dunno y m i so affected.
with each and every action or words u say or done.
—–
does this tell me how much ur meant to me?
idk.
—–
im sick n i wish i cld be stronger.
stronger den tis.

*i dunno how. you just makes me misses u so much.
run into my arms like you had nv done before.
for i’ll embrace u with all my love. =_

23/05/09

Im the happiest person around. Cuz not only did I manage to get tix to watch my fav distant world (which consist of not only symphony band but also final fantasy songs), I also managed to get wad I wanted to get. I GOT IT!!!! Wahahha. I screamed when I got it. =p Thou a lot of money were spend on this two things, it was well spent. Every single cents of it. YAYNESS!!!! =)

TKS to my ever GREATEST DARLING!! Wahahha. Ur the BEST darling. Without u, I tink ill only hv the chance to stand dere n look at it. =)

*sorry we din get to tan cuz of the concert. But I know u did spend a great time with me after tat rite. Cuz I do. Hehehe. =)

24/05/09 – 25/05/09

Went to play l4d n hell we played throughout the night till like almost 4AM. GOD! I got work in the morning lar. At 7AM. Hahha. Now im at work typing this whole chunk cuz if I dun, im so gonna slppppppp. Kekek.

My throat’s starting to hurt. Frm all the shouting while playing, sweets, weather and under mum’s germs. I hope I dun fall sick. At least till after Thursday and Friday. Dun let me die like tat. Im gonna stand strong! =)

Wad im goin to type below are quite emotional. Not for the weak heart. Keke. Oh well read on, kaypos. Whahaha. =)

*my sixth sense were right all along. T liked u. I juz knew it. N u just doesn’t believe so. Now im right aint i? The way I knew H and S liked u. When T say will burn down bishan cuz I bullied u. do u really tink tat its funny. actually I really dun tink so. Can someone tell T to stop hitting on those tat were attached. WTF R U TRYING TO PROVE MAN? SCREW U! language. I know. Hai.

We are very happy tgt and we dun need any other interruption esp frm pple like the likes of u, T, H, S and whoever it shld be. Jae’s mine and im jae’s. tat’s all its all about and will be about. We may hv our quarrels and unhappiness but we love each other more den anything else with or without U. if u aint sincere in being just frens then just FUCK OFF! GET ME!

Okay. These are all my tots not jae’s. hahaha. Just venting off some steams. Buo buo!!! Chu ku chu ku chu ku chu ku! Buo buo!

*sometimes, I really wonder wad ur thinking deep down? I wished so much to believe in you. But tell me how can I when ur actions prove otherwise? I really wan to know. For I know I wan to love u till the very end.

Ps. Im learning how to ask and love. I am. Its true. =)

i swear i wan it!

pls scold me dumb pple. arghhhhhh. i dunno y i know its dumb yet i still do it. but i swear to myself one day. one day i’ll get it…. SOONNNN!!! no matter how much it gonna takes me. on second tots. hahahha. we shall see. may god shine its blessings on me. keke. oh well.

12 buckz n 3 hrs down the drain with no returns and counting. sulks. darling. u muz jia you jia you for me. kekeke.

who hv final fantasy tix wan to sell me. sourcing for the tix is a failure. )= show on 22nd n 23rd man. i tink fated cant see it liao. sulkz. zhi wei. jia you jia you on sourcing for the tixs okay. =)

nnnn. i had my eyes on a new babe. its touch screeeennnnnnn…. pictures at this link. http://redfingerprint.com/watches_list.php/ODM/ODM_3_Touch
bloody hell. analog+digital is at 429+ and digital face is 330+. GOD. I wan!!!!
my eyes are fixed on uuuu. wahhaha. but so ex sia. like not worth it. )=

anyhow. my first aim is to get tat piece of thingy first. hahaha. first time i do such insane things. *sinister laugh. n darling. dun ask me to get it for u too. i’ll kill uuuu. whahahha. okayz. gtg. tired. ciaos!

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